this hot boy

and the list just getting longer and longer

but this boy is just so irresistible.
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hahaha, yes, he's the new hottie
fresh and hot. so damn HOT.

and he makes robert pattinson seem so last year. yeah, at least for me.

he's the one and only
TAYLOR LAUTNER BABY!!!

he's the main focus of girls watching new moon.
he's got this sexy tanned skin.
his sincere warm eyes
and don't forget his muscles!!!
WOW

I've always been a fan of tanned boys, so Robert Pattinson hasn't fully charm me in the first place.
then suddenly, this boy came in. and I was like...

"what? robert pattinson? who?"

ckakakaka *agak lebai memang*

but seriously, girls
how can you possibly resist this:

wow
totally. hahaha
heard the rumour that he's now with Taylor Swift.
well, she's such a lucky bitch, isn't she?

the end

am remembering
from the first stories till the very last smile
that cold little smile

it was just a smile, but it was more than enough to make me realize
that it's over, that's the end of us
and the end is not so cool
but it is better than being hung by thread, with nothing certain
and no guarantee that someday that situation will change
this time it's bold

so I guess it's all over, huh?
and this time, for good
so maybe I better get used to it



am I still allowed to miss you?

kembali melan geje

hmm, firstly, biggest apology
karena post ini akan menjadi ajang curhat saya
terimakasih


let's get this over with then.


udah nahan-nahan, jangan jadiin blogger tempat sampah perasaan. ternyata, emang paling asik dump all the garbage here yooo.

so, so, so
ever feel insecure about your feeling?
like, you are afraid to be hurt by that certain person (u know what I mean), meanwhile you're afraid too about what other people may think about your feelings.
the case here is, afraid to be judged 'stupid'. 'hypocrite'. 'naive'. even if *maybe* in fact, you are.

dan pernah juga ga sih *and yes, ini posting bilingual. marah2 paling enak kalo gado2*
ngerasa kaya sesuatu itu ga adil?
like you don't deserve what you get, and here I mean, you deserve better.
to be specified, you deserve to be TREATED better.

dan pernah juga ga sih, ngerasa terlalu banyak yang harus dipikirkan. semua jenis msalah datangnya bareng2, keroyokan.
KALO BERANI SATU2 DONG!
dan kalo udah kaya gtu, jatoh2nya apa? jadi sensi, pengen marah2, gloomy sepanjang hari. bikin polusi sosial juga buat orang di sekeliling lo.

and to make it even worse, lo dikasih beban sesuatu. yang lo gatau lagi gimana cara mikulnya.

kesel ga sih?

dunia kaya gitu sekarang lagi naksir sama gw. deket2 mulu.
jujur, pasti gamau kan jadi seseorang yang whiny. ngeluh ini itu. tapi kadang, perasaannya terlalu overwhelming. and you just need something, somewhere, someone, to dump that shit, to maintain your emotion. supaya ga nambah2 polusi sosial di lingkungan.
bahkan tanpa polusi sosial dari lo, lingkungan sosial udah ga sehat.

mungkin terasa familiar? hmm, hope so. semoga bisa pada relate ke tulisan ini. *kalo ngga ya, maapkan*
karena dunia suckish di atas lagi ga terla3u jauh dari gw.
dan semoga ngga deket2 amat juga.

so there, hate this post, love this post, or just ignore it.
and believe me, I'll take quite some time to be brave enough to click the 'PUBLISH' icon.

hahaha...


and surprise?
belom beres ciinnn


ckakakaka


mau ngomong apa lagi ya??
hmm, oia! kalo ada line lagu yang lagi pengen banget gw kasih ke seseorang
that line would be:

"Can't you see that I'm the one who understands you
been here all along, why can't you see?"

yes, taylor swift-you belong with me. ABG abis.
dan gw emang sengaja ga nyertain bagian 'you belong with me' nya.
karena ngga yakin, si manusia itu emang 'belongs with me'... dan kayanya sih ngga.
saat seseorang belongs with you, dia akan terlihat sangat unik. berbeda. one in a million.
tapi sekarang, dia ngga terlihat seperti si 'one' itu. dia terlihat sooo 'million'. kaya orang2 lain.

malesin. hahaha.

faktor bosen? mungkin.
satu yang gw tahu. momen kaya gini bikin kita jadi munafik.

udah ketauan berengseknya. udah ketauan belangnya.
kita akan terlihat bodoh kalo masih mengharapkan? ya ngga?
seseorang yang menggunakan logika, mostly, will say 'yes'
tapi kenyataannya?

I'm so over it... NOT.
hahahaha.
padahal kalo ada yang nanya
"gimana chel si ituuu?? masihhh??"
gw: "yah ampun , kemana ajah? udah kelaut."


GET REAL.


ya ampunnn.


kembalikan logika saya.
dan emosi sehat saya.

BUTUH. SANGAT.

erh, me out, I guess.
sorry for dumping my feelings here..
feel better, me. you? feel worse? sick? wanna puke?
go on. no offense taken. ckakakaka
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