Bee whY Ee

So we're here, 28th of Dec 2009.
Close to the end of the year, and somehow my fingers were tickled to click Blogger.

About 2009, well what can I say?

I can't say that it's the best year in my life, not the worst either. It's just... fine. Wonderful in its own way. The pain and the joy, the euphoria, the tears, they all collide perfectly, make a nice memory in my head. Sealed another nice year added to my 15 years.

And I am grateful. I totally am.

So, in 2009... I face hospital for the first time.
Okay. Wrong. I've faced it obliviously when I was a baby. However, this one is my first, what should I call it, stay? in hospital. conscious.
I spent 4 days at the hospital, blood test every single day *made my right arm all numb*, all that. And until now, I don't even know what the disease was specifically. I even passed my 16th birthday there. What a nice way to celebrate huh?

Well, I did celebrate. twice. First, at the hospital when 2 of my PDA buds brought a cake and all those stuff. And I still remember the coach said "Chel, yang nunjukin lo sakit cuma infus doang tau." Geez.

Then, right when I came home from the hospital, ready to whine and mourn over my pile of school assignments and tests to catch up. I found all of my bestfriends in front of my house. And that was the celebration, second part. Cakes, presents, all those stuff again. Then, we sang together noisily, I was surprised the neighbors didn't complain.

every clouds has a silver lining.
See? I was sick, and I shouldn't be able to celebrate ANYTHING. but I didn't lose any celebration, I got it anyway. twice.

Next, in 2009, I knew debate
Okay, I knew debate in the late 2008 actually, but I actually DEBATE in competitions in 2009. Four competitions, and the highest position me and my team got was the 4th. KompEk UI as semifinalist fourth position, and WJSDC, fourth on the standing.
No trophy, no prizes, just certificates, YET. True. But I got a new life, God bless the day I joined Phyxius English Debating Association. I learned so much, I had fun, I earned a huge number of friends, and at least I got some certificates huh? Getting those kind of achievement is always good. See? Grateful.

In 2009, I attended XI Grade IPA Class.
I wasn't that obsessive about IPA then, I'm not that kind of student who worships IPA Class so much now. But during X Grade I did work my ass out to get some serious number of scores, not too magnificent but I at least enough to give me the freedom to choose between these two classes. Thank God I got it. And I chose IPA. I totally understand where I was getting myself into. The urgency of those additional classes afterschool for the science subjects and stuff. But then, again I'm grateful. Here, I learn to be a student. I start to feel my obligation to study, and it came from myself. I realized that, before, that usually come from other people, my parents especially. I also feel motivated seeing my all so devoted friends. And now, I'm used to those study session together at Paskal Hyper Square's foodcourt, Biology tutoring afterschool in the canteen. Thanks to them who made it easier. Grateful.

In 2009, I started to learn one more language.
As XI Grade started, I also attended a class at CCF Bandung. I learned French. This thing I've wanted to do since, I don't know when. And true, I'm just a beginner, I can hardly speak this language, let alone masterize it. And true, this language is so damn hard. But with some years of learning, I will surely get a grip on that, right? And again, I'm grateful, here besides the language learning, I also met so many new friends. New various. Fellow highschool-ers, college kids, even professionals. True, we only meet twice a week, but we're stuck learning this hard language together, right? haha

In 2009... err, okay
I'm also grateful here. I still remember my prayer at the end of last year. I wished for someone that I can relate to, someone close and *hopefully* can understand me.
And guess what?
This year I had my first... what? crush? love? whatever word that can describe you, mister.
I'm happy and of course GRATEFUL, having you around. Not that we're something special, I know we're just... regular. Not that I'm still hoping to change that situation too, I'm done waiting. I've waited this whole year, and that's enough. But I can't get enough of you, not now, when you're a part of my day already. So I'm not planning to take off, disappear, turn my back on you or anything. I'm happy that I have you, and I hope that I will still have you in 2010. As anything that God wants you to be for me. I said that I'm done waiting, but I'm still open for some kind of miracles, at the same time. *a little embarrassing confession there* Hmm?

There, that was my 2009.
God has made my days in His way this year. And I love every single one of it.
I wished for things, He gave it, he didn't. That's not the point. The point is, He still gave it His way. He keeps our past, He watches our present and He sees our future, so who knows better? Not us.
Whine a little, upset a little. We are human. Unwanted situations SHOULD bother us. But get over it as fast as you can, live your life, make the most of it, make it good to live. In the end, you can see the beauty of those flaws, how perfect your imperfect life is.
And now I sound like a preacher. Of course I did some unnecessary whining too, but believe me I try to practice what I preach, enjoying life is more fun than crying over things that doesn't exist obviously. So let's just learn together, we're beginner here. :)

It's midnight, I'll have to end this. And also want to say that this will be my last post here at blogger.com
Why? Because of my lack of desire to write, unlike before. So, to avoid adding cyber pollution by keep writing unnecessary crap *you see sometimes I dump all my nonsense here* I think it's best for me to close this blog. Not for good, of course, duh. But I'll survive with just twitter as a miniblog for now. I don't know when I'll start blogging again, but even if I've found the right time, I won't be writing here anymore. Planning on tumblr though. haha.

Over and out, guys. seriously!
see ya around ... :)

if only

spoiler alert: Miiko, Twilight, New Moon, Eclipse, P.S I Love You... peace out! ^^

Kalo kalian cewe, dan suka baca komik, atau novel
atau nonton TV series, atau film... whatever it is.
Pernah ngga sih ngerasa sangat sangaaaattt terpesona sama sebuah karakter (cowo, tentu saja) dan kalian jadi ngayal ttg karakter ini.

dan karakter ini bikin perut jumpalitan?

haha. I'm experiencing that. Jumpalitan sama karakter2 fiksi. Mungkin terlihat ga penting ya gw, ngurusin bahkan nulis tentang karakter yang ngga eksis.
whatever... I'm just so impressed with these boys!

give it up for the first boy of the list!

1. Eguchi Tappei
stupid huh?

*Tappei, the ignorant yet caring boy, wow, contradictive*

yap, yap. Tappei di Miiko, that manga. Pertamanya gw penasaran sama ini komik gara2 semua orang ngomong lucu dan rame. DAN sweet, romantis. gw pikir ga mungkin aje, komik udah jelas2 bentuk tokohnya absurd semua gitu, adalah yang tinggi, adalah yang pendek, bulet, buntet. Diameter mulut gedenya luar biasa lebai, gimana bisa sweet?

dan ternyata...


AKU SALAH.


Tappei does have the charm.
Oke, jadi spoiler dikit yaaa... basic hubungan Tappei dan Miiko itu temenan, sahabatan. Tapi tipe sahabat yang selau ribut. Dan begonya, mereka berdua sebenernya tau mereka saling suka, tapi ya itu dia. Gengsi merajalela teruuusss aja ejek2an. Agak lebai memang ceritanya, mengingat setting umur mereka tuh kelas 5 SD. Gapapalah yaaa. Fiksi itu ada untuk menjadi non-sense, give us a break from this irritatingly boring reality, haha.
Nah, nah... Tappei ini orangnya cuek, jail, tengil, nyebelin... semua adjektif yang bisa menggambarkan sosok jerk. Tapi yang hebat, di balik cueknya ini dy bisa menunjukkan care-nya dia. Terutama ke Miiko.

Momen yang bikin perut jumpalitan:
Satu cerita saat Tappei meng-cover Miiko atas vas bunga kelas yang pecah. Tappei tau Miiko yang mecahin vas bunga kelas mereka , dan besoknya saat vas pecah itu keliatan sama guru, dia malah ngaku dia yang mecahin. Tappei dimarahin sama Pak Guru, tapi dasar tengil, dy cuek2 aja. Miiko ngga enak, jadi nangis sendiri. Trus Tappei yang duduknya di belakang Miiko, sambil jalan ke tempat duduk, nepuk punggung Miiko yang lagi nangis sambil senyum2 tengil.
Udah. gitu doank. how cute.

*the oh-so-cute relationship. Tappei-Miiko!*

2. Jacob Black

Jacob Black (Taylor Lautner) in New Moon...

yeah, yeah! Who doesn't love him?
Pesonanya cocky, arogan, stubborn. Ngga kalah menyebalkan. Tapi apa yang bikin Jacob Black jadi karakter yang asik?
Di Twilight saga (yang baru gw baca sampe Eclipse) karakter Jacob itu keras kepala. BANGET. dia tau Bella udah ngga bisa dilepas dari Edward, tapi dia tetep berusaha buat menunjukkan kalau dia juga layak jadi pilihan buat Bella. Yet, dia tetep ngga cross the line. Dia bersaing dengan sehat, dan saat dia bener2 udah sadar kalau dia ngga punya harapan, dia rela hanya jadi 'pelampiasan' Bella. Dan somehow, Stephenie Meyer berhasil membuat karakter Jacob melakukan itu semua, tanpa meninggalkan sifat arogan, childish dan obnoxious nya. Itu yang membuat Jacob masih terlihat normal, ngga terlalu sempurna, punya titik menyebalkan.
Selain itu, dengan Taylor Lautner yang super ganteng itu maenin peran Jacob, sangat membantu buat saya semakin jatuh cinta!

Momen yang bikin perut jumpalitan:
Ending Eclipse, dialog antara Bella dan Jacob
Jacob: He's (Edward) like a drug to you, Bella. I see that you can't live without him now. It's too late. But I would have been healthier for you, not a drug; I would have been the air, the sun"
Bella: I used to think of you that way you know. Like the sun. My personal sun, you balanced out the clouds nicely for me.
Jacob: *sighed* The clouds I can handle, but I can't fight with an eclipse.

*the impossible affair Jacob-Bella*

bukan cuma perut yang jumpalitan. Kelenjar air mata juga. shoot, that selfish, obnoxious boy is sweet, and in pain, AND HANDSOME! Haha, okay yang ganteng bukan Jacob Black, it's Taylor Lautner, but still!!

3. Gerry Kennedy

*Gerry in action, P.S I Love You*

I watched P.S I Love You long ago. Ini bukan tipe film yang bakal gw nikmatin kalo ditonton berulang2, dramanya intens. Tapi sekali nonton, sekali nangis sesenggukan cukup buat bikin gw jatuh cinta sama karakter suami di sini. Dimainin dengan sangat oke sama Gerard Butler.
Jadi basically pasangan di film ini ngga bisa dibilang lovey-dovey couple juga. Mereka namanya Holly dan Gerry, sering banget berantem, mostly about financial issues. Tapi berantem mereka memang ngga akan tahan lama. Intinya meskipun ngga manis2 amat, mereka tuh saling membutuhkan. Dan suatu kali, Gerry tiba-tiba meninggal, karena kanker otak yang ternyata dia rahasiain dari Holly. Tapi sebelum meninggal, ternyata Gerry udah ngatur surat2, hadiah, kue, tiket liburan ke tempat mereka pertama ketemu, apapun yang akan dikirim ke Holly secara berkala, sesuai momen setelah dia meninggal. Bahkan rekaman suara "Happy Birthday" untuk ulang tahun Holly. Dia ngga mau ninggalin isterinya secara tiba-tiba dan tanpa pegangan, dia pengen pergi pelan2.

What I like about this character? Again, ngga terlalu sweet, romantis. Malah sedikit childish dan reckless bisa dibilang, tapi dia sangat cocok untuk Holly yang serius dan keras. He's loosen her a little. Dan tentu saja, ide dia tentang surat2 itu yaaahhhh... ampun. kalo ada yang bilang itu ngga touching, you're a truly heartless person! Dia juga ngga bermaksud mengikat Holly terus sama dia *yang sudah meninggal, tentu saja* karena surat terakhir akhirnya dateng juga. Dia cuma ngga mau istrinya larut terus mewek2 tanpa ada pegangan. akhirnya, saat dia percaya istrinya siap, dia hilang, for good.

Momen yang bikin perut jumpalitan:
Surat yang terakhir. Dibaca sama Holly di puncak bukit, tempat dia dan Gerry pertama ketemu di Irlandia. Saat itu Gerry muncul, tapi tanpa bisa diliat Holly *tentu saja*, let's say as a ghost lah yaa... dan dia berdiri disamping Holly. Seakan2 dia yang bacain surat itu untuk isterinya, di sebelahnya, langsung. Dan di akhir surat, dia ngomong "P.S... I Love You." sambil nyandarin kepalanya ke bahu isterinya, lovingly *again, Hollynya ngga ngerasa tentu saja, tapi ekspresinya merasakan kehadiran suaminya, gitu, ngerti ngga?*

the lovely married couple Gerry-Holly

Air mata banjir abis.

Those are my all-time favorites. Emang sih jenis yang saia suka yaa, yang cuek2, nyebelin tapi manis gituh. That's why, for the Twilight case, saia ga suka Edward
Edward terlalu manis, lovey-dovey, agak lebai.
Mungkin karena dia udah hampir 200 taun ya.. haha

Alright, mereka semua terdengar sangat sempurna, memang. Andai aja cowo2 kaya mereka beneran ada di dunia.
WOW.
But then, the real world is not suposed to be perfect, that's why those perfect boys stay in fictional world. So I guess, we should be satisfied admiring them through those fictions. haha. Imagining is more fun!

this hot boy

and the list just getting longer and longer

but this boy is just so irresistible.
\

hahaha, yes, he's the new hottie
fresh and hot. so damn HOT.

and he makes robert pattinson seem so last year. yeah, at least for me.

he's the one and only
TAYLOR LAUTNER BABY!!!

he's the main focus of girls watching new moon.
he's got this sexy tanned skin.
his sincere warm eyes
and don't forget his muscles!!!
WOW

I've always been a fan of tanned boys, so Robert Pattinson hasn't fully charm me in the first place.
then suddenly, this boy came in. and I was like...

"what? robert pattinson? who?"

ckakakaka *agak lebai memang*

but seriously, girls
how can you possibly resist this:

wow
totally. hahaha
heard the rumour that he's now with Taylor Swift.
well, she's such a lucky bitch, isn't she?

the end

am remembering
from the first stories till the very last smile
that cold little smile

it was just a smile, but it was more than enough to make me realize
that it's over, that's the end of us
and the end is not so cool
but it is better than being hung by thread, with nothing certain
and no guarantee that someday that situation will change
this time it's bold

so I guess it's all over, huh?
and this time, for good
so maybe I better get used to it



am I still allowed to miss you?

kembali melan geje

hmm, firstly, biggest apology
karena post ini akan menjadi ajang curhat saya
terimakasih


let's get this over with then.


udah nahan-nahan, jangan jadiin blogger tempat sampah perasaan. ternyata, emang paling asik dump all the garbage here yooo.

so, so, so
ever feel insecure about your feeling?
like, you are afraid to be hurt by that certain person (u know what I mean), meanwhile you're afraid too about what other people may think about your feelings.
the case here is, afraid to be judged 'stupid'. 'hypocrite'. 'naive'. even if *maybe* in fact, you are.

dan pernah juga ga sih *and yes, ini posting bilingual. marah2 paling enak kalo gado2*
ngerasa kaya sesuatu itu ga adil?
like you don't deserve what you get, and here I mean, you deserve better.
to be specified, you deserve to be TREATED better.

dan pernah juga ga sih, ngerasa terlalu banyak yang harus dipikirkan. semua jenis msalah datangnya bareng2, keroyokan.
KALO BERANI SATU2 DONG!
dan kalo udah kaya gtu, jatoh2nya apa? jadi sensi, pengen marah2, gloomy sepanjang hari. bikin polusi sosial juga buat orang di sekeliling lo.

and to make it even worse, lo dikasih beban sesuatu. yang lo gatau lagi gimana cara mikulnya.

kesel ga sih?

dunia kaya gitu sekarang lagi naksir sama gw. deket2 mulu.
jujur, pasti gamau kan jadi seseorang yang whiny. ngeluh ini itu. tapi kadang, perasaannya terlalu overwhelming. and you just need something, somewhere, someone, to dump that shit, to maintain your emotion. supaya ga nambah2 polusi sosial di lingkungan.
bahkan tanpa polusi sosial dari lo, lingkungan sosial udah ga sehat.

mungkin terasa familiar? hmm, hope so. semoga bisa pada relate ke tulisan ini. *kalo ngga ya, maapkan*
karena dunia suckish di atas lagi ga terla3u jauh dari gw.
dan semoga ngga deket2 amat juga.

so there, hate this post, love this post, or just ignore it.
and believe me, I'll take quite some time to be brave enough to click the 'PUBLISH' icon.

hahaha...


and surprise?
belom beres ciinnn


ckakakaka


mau ngomong apa lagi ya??
hmm, oia! kalo ada line lagu yang lagi pengen banget gw kasih ke seseorang
that line would be:

"Can't you see that I'm the one who understands you
been here all along, why can't you see?"

yes, taylor swift-you belong with me. ABG abis.
dan gw emang sengaja ga nyertain bagian 'you belong with me' nya.
karena ngga yakin, si manusia itu emang 'belongs with me'... dan kayanya sih ngga.
saat seseorang belongs with you, dia akan terlihat sangat unik. berbeda. one in a million.
tapi sekarang, dia ngga terlihat seperti si 'one' itu. dia terlihat sooo 'million'. kaya orang2 lain.

malesin. hahaha.

faktor bosen? mungkin.
satu yang gw tahu. momen kaya gini bikin kita jadi munafik.

udah ketauan berengseknya. udah ketauan belangnya.
kita akan terlihat bodoh kalo masih mengharapkan? ya ngga?
seseorang yang menggunakan logika, mostly, will say 'yes'
tapi kenyataannya?

I'm so over it... NOT.
hahahaha.
padahal kalo ada yang nanya
"gimana chel si ituuu?? masihhh??"
gw: "yah ampun , kemana ajah? udah kelaut."


GET REAL.


ya ampunnn.


kembalikan logika saya.
dan emosi sehat saya.

BUTUH. SANGAT.

erh, me out, I guess.
sorry for dumping my feelings here..
feel better, me. you? feel worse? sick? wanna puke?
go on. no offense taken. ckakakaka
'

living the good life

totally.

minggu lalu kami barely had KBM
dan sabtu kemaren saia nonton Malam Pagelaran Seni SMAK 1 bersama teman2...
@ Dago Tea House Bandung

best part

tentu sajah...

KERISPATIHHH

ya ampun, sammy makan apaan sik, suaranya bagus bet dah... wkwkwk
bermelannajong ria bersama teman2 dengan suara emas sammy *jiah lebai*

pokonya gitu dehhhh


trus skrg saia sedang dikelilingi baju2 yang belom dimasukkin tas
dan di bawah kaki saia ada tas travel time yang kebuka retsletingnya.

mu ngapain lo chel??
widyawisata with the class of course! yeah

Jogja-Solo akhirnya, setelah diganti sebelumnya rencana Lampung-Jakarta
berhubung gempa beruntun di Sumatera (our prayers with u all, friends) orangtua agak2 rebek gtuh mu biarin kita widyawisata ke Lampung. Jadi yaa, pengalihan tujuan, diambillah Jogja dan Solo. Lucunya, gara2 skul ngecancelnya hanya seminggu sblum hari-H, kena cancellation fee, n ada beberapa DP yang ga bisa dibalikin. otomatis dana jadi kurang. nah, sekolah minta ke travel buat ngatur2 acara gimana caranya biar kita gausa nambah biaya lagi.

dan solusinyaa...

TIDAK ADA KUNJUNGAN INDUSTRI.

artinya sodara2??

KAMI TIDAK ADA TUGAS. ngga kaya widyawisata biasanya.

BANZAAAIII!!

artinya lagi sodara2....

widyawisata (coret)

WISATA MURNI.

this is what I call 'living the good life'

gausa deh inget2 minggu depan beres piknik, sekola menunggu, tugas, ulangan dan PEDC 2009. Ahh well... Live what we're living, right???


soo, let's get the party started... HERE WE COME, BABY!!!

off to Jogja-Solo peeps, I'll be back with a bunch of photos and stories. duh. hwehwe :)

the Proposal

berkali-kali jalan di lorong XXI
berkali-kali liat poster The Proposal...
tapi akhirnya nonton juga loohhh... YAY!

ceritanya hari terakhir mid, and I was so sick with those Mid-Test thingie.
Jadiii, saia memutuskan mengajak ibu Yani Parasti untuk nonton the Proposal pulang Mid.
Yes people, just two besties hanging out, watching a chick-flick romantic comedy. hahaha, 'jomblo stuff' banget ngga sih?
ahh, the hell laahhh... filmnya asoy geboy yang jelaas...

this movie is totally the romantic c0medy of the year. yeah, baby. senang sekali saia menontonnya...
super kocak. sekalinya kocak bisa ketawa ngga berhenti2 loh, sampe sakit perut gue... Tapi sekalinya sweet... Oh my, really thankful I didn't watch the movie with a boy, or 'someone else'
GILAA, bikin pengen dipeluk!

super sweet and super funny.
and ryan reynolds is super cute too. hihihi.

okeeii, ceritanya emang ga magnifico banget gituh sih. dengan liat posternya, dan baca taglinenya ("here comes the bribe..")
sebenernya udah bisa nebak banget kok alur cerita dan endingnya.
cuma mencapai endingnya itu loohh, gokil bet dah. chemistry antara Ryan n Sandra juga oke. Jadinya yang nonton ya nyaman2 ajahh, biarpun itu cerita sebenernya sih super klise. and it was a nice laugh, indeed. gw orangnya film = hiburan sih, not a quality movie freak. malah agak ga mudeng sama film2 festival gtuh... kata orang keren, gw pasti malah bingung endingnya. YAAAH, maklumlahhh... anak SMA. people don't mock on teenagers and go like "dasar ABG" or "selera ABG banget sih!" for no reason you know. hoho.

eniweis,
fave scene: dansa huga2 bersama nenek di hutan. totally, like duh.

soo, all in all... if you're looking for a nice laugh, come see this movie. for me, it worth every penny, oops. not penny, maybe... 'cepek-an'. gyahaha *mulai geje*

ciao!

these distractions

I Love...

the smell of fresh jasmine tea, ready to drink.

remembering the smell of people close to me

the fact that I don't cry easily because of my own experience, makes it easier to get over

the fact that I DO cry easily for others experience, makes me a more caring less ignorant person

screaming, shouting, yelling

a school-day without having any lessons, just fun activities

the smell of the air from a newly turned on air conditioner

the idea of a guy hugging his girl around her waist from behind to surprise her, it's just sweet.

a sad-ending for fiction novels

a happy ending for television series

a bitter-sweet ending for movies

super sad sentimental songs

super sweet lovey dovey songs

super bitchy songs *especially this one*

the smell of bookstores

rubbing my feet on my bed sheet before I fall to sleep

mozarella cheese

salty food

any food that contains cheese and eggs

seeing a good blood related brother-sister relationships, sweet.

a rather rough yet romantic male voice

noodles. ALL KINDS OF THEM.

the friendly, green yet sophisticated atmosphere of Universitas Indonesia, Depok

rather sentimental love quotes

daydreaming alone, imagining how I want things to be

having a nice girl-talk with my besties

horror movies for watching with friends

romantic comedy for watching with the girls (or alone)

family comedy for watching alone

and of course, the last but definitely not least

having a new message on my cell and find your name when I press 'open'

***

I once read a really cool writing that said,
we all know that at one point, we'll meet the end of our lives
so basically this whole things that we call as 'life' is just some sort of distractions from that certain end. and that's why people are dying to try to make their own distractions for a nice life.
and those list before, I'll consider them as my distractions
simple things that keep me alive.
simple things that I, simply love.

the confessions of a Disneychannel-junkie

I was on denial *I guess*
hahaha, I know I know, I've never mentioned anything about Disney *or, have I?* or that I am a big, huge fan of Disney Channel. But, who am I kidding, I REALLY NEED TO WRITE THIS POST! I AM a Disney Channel Junkie, I watch Hannah Montana, from the 1st season till the 3rd season, I hardly ever miss The Suite Life of Zack and Cody, the only Disney's non-cartoon movie that I miss is The Prince and the Pauper, and it's because I FORGOT, not because I wasn't interested. So yes, I am a Disney Channel-freak. haha, take it or leave it peeps, that's me...!

So how can I realize that I am a Disney freak? Well, last Sunday I watched Disney Channel for almost like, the entire day... And that was the best Disney-day ever.
Before I go on, I always call Saturday and Sunday as Disney-days. Because, those two days have Hannah Montana (3!!), Suite Life on Deck, Wizards (new episodes) and Original Movie. Hahaha, yes, I AM a freak.
Back to last Sunday, I watched Hannah Montana, and that was my favorite Hannah Montana episode like, ever! Why, why? Because, they featured David Archuleta!! hahaha, what a minor reason, I know. But then because of that, I knew one song by Miley and David called "I Wanna Know You" and I went straight to the compie and searched for the song, downloaded it and here I am listening to it, OVER AND OVER. hahaha. I am that crazy.

And theeennn, like it wasn't enough, I continued to watch the premiere of Princess Protection Programme, starring Selena Gomez and Demi Lovato. And I quite like the movie...

So, what I like from the movie is, it's not standard. The theme is not all about love, how those teens find their crush, a cute boy, a charming prince on a white horse, and la-dee-dee-duh-duh.... Come on, boring. This one really concentrate on the friendship, how you can be grateful for your life and what you currently have. And I like the idea of princess here... We know that Disney Channel is for tweens... not teenagers. And most movies these days create a mindset that to become a princess, you have to be pretty, popular and perfect, and once you are, you'll find a charming prince, or at least, a knight in shining armor just with a snap of your finger. Well, meanwhile... this movie really taught us that, princess is not only about the tiara, the heels, the pretty gowns and dresses, it's actually what's inside. You can't be a princess when you only have a heart of a selfish, childish, ordinary girl right? And the princess side of us is not given, it's earned. That's a nice moral value, pour moi.
We don't have to see a hard and complicated thing to learn a good value, sometimes this light and minor entertainment can be a really good teacher too.

So yes, I'm not ashamed of the fact that I'm actually crazy for these Disney stuff... It's entertaining for me. Life is hard already, why don't we chill with these fun and light things once in a while?

gempa dan Friday

mungkin pada denger di berita ya, ada gempa gede mengguncang pulau Jawa yang berpusat di Tasikmalaya. well, Bandung juga kena imbasnya. Kena gempa, meskipun ngga segede yang di Tasik, tapi cukup gede buat bikin banyak orang shock dan terpingsan pingsan.
waktu itu gw lagi di tempat les Mafiki, tempatnya di Paskal Hyper Square, dan gw lagi belajar Fisika di lantai 2, tepatnya di kelas yang dindingnya kaca semua. Tau2 goyang kenceng, dan butuh waktu cukup lama buat kita semua untuk 'ngeh'. Awalnya cuma planga-plongo aja liat-liatan satu sama lain, bertanya2 di kepala masing. Baru sadar beberapa menit kemudian, itu beneran gempa! Lari keluar, dan ternyata kita yang terakhir keluar. Semua orang ngga se 'lambat' kita kayanya... Tapi teteup ajah, ini kaki lemes setengah mampus, dan akhirnya duduk juga gw di trotoar sambil doa... Soalnya gw serem banget liat sekeliling masih goyang, lampu jalan, Amnesia... Semua keliatan bergetar2 aja ngga berenti2... I was wondering to myself, how long will this keep going? I'm scared already! Sampe beberapa menit masih ada gempa2 susulan, dan akhirnya... ngga ada yang berani belajar di lantai 2. Kita akhirnya belajar di bawah, tapi teteup ga konsen, akhirnya pulang juga...

Ga jauh2, gw cuma liat ini sebagai peringatan, selama ini Bandung terasa sangaaatt 'aman', hampir ga ada apa2, mungkin kita jadi kurang waspada juga. Udah terbiasa melihat segala sesuatunya terjadi di tempat lain. Selama ini gw juga ngerasa kalo liat berita dan terjadi natural disaster di tempat lain(earthquake, tsunami, anything) gw mungkin cuma peduli di awal2 dan kesananya malah bosan, padahal bayangin berapa ribu orang yang menderita gara2 bencana kaya gitu. Penderitaan mereka ngga berakhir meskipun beritanya udah ngga disiarin lagi... Dan setelah ngerasain sendiri gempa yang cukup gede, I get it, it's not minor. It's drop dead scary. Tuhan pengen kita lebih peduli, itu menurut pandangan gw.

Serem juga efeknya di kota2 yang kena gempa... May God bless us all...

Oke, that was about the earthquake. on the lighter side... akhirnyaaa... GW DAPET JUGA ALBUMNYA RAN!!

Yes peeps, it's RAN's newest album, Friday!
akhirnya, setelah beberapa kali ngejar ke disctarra, dan ngga ada terus... akhirnya... DAPET JUGA!. This album is like the Indonesia album of the year for me... nunggu2 banget dehhh, sayang waktu launchingnya Kamis, ga mungkin pergi, di Jakarta pula... Tapi ga apa-apa dehhh, coz the waiting is over... Now I'm listening to this album over and over again, and I've already found my favorite!

Recommended tracks: Karena Kusuka Dirimu, T.G.I Friday, Piano (feat. Andi Rianto), Jadi Gila!

Bukan berarti yang laen ga oke siihh, tapi ini yang paling paling palinggggg gw suka. Nice work boys!

hehehehe,,,

this week

for me?
it was a roller coaster ride. One day was nice, one day was fun, one day I stayed up almost till dawn to finish my assignments, one day I went to bed so early since I didn't have anything to do, and the others were just plain and standard. that's what you get when you ask a high-school girl. But if you're talking about a country, it won't be the same.

so I was chatting with my friend when this news broke the TV. A Taruna at ATKP Medan died while he was doing his OSPEK (u know that junior-senior thingie). He died with one of his backbone broken, his eyelid was torn and his lips were bleeding. What a tragic thing, especially when it took place in an education body. I thought we are already in a modern age, where everyone has totally understand what is and isn't necessary in education.
Seriously people, do you think you get smarter or more intelligent if you are hit? Because as far as I know, the results are only pain, wounds, and moreover... death.
And for those (so called) senior who hit him and caused his death, well, are you happy now? To see one of your junior die because of your totally childish behavior, and to see his mother actually mourned and cried over her son's body endlessly. If that's your goal then, I congratulate you since your mission seems to be accomplished. And yes, I'm so mad about this news, it's not the first time in our country and the government always say that they have take care about that kind of thing. Which we can see isn't true since the same case happened again, and again, and again. We all know, that kind of institution only accept students with high academic achievement, superior body condition and HUGE brain capability. So we actually lost our best children each time this kind of case happen. Seriously, people. Stop being such a bighead just because you're a senior. It's just so immature.


Next thing is about stealing, copying and plagiarism.
and yes, I was talking about that Malaysia thingie.
I just want to say that, maybe overreacting is the last thing that we need to do right now. No use at all. Why don't we try to make those Malaysian people realize that our country is such a rich country, and their acts just make the world realize how poor they are for not having any culture of their own to be proud of? I'm not saying that we need to remain calm always while our wealth are stolen, no. Still, we need to protect our own culture too, they have stolen enough. Start promoting our treasure to the world, that way they will know who's the owner and who's the thieve right?


So that's all I want to write.
over and out, nite folks.

mellow-jelloww...

paling sebel dah kalo udah kaya gini.
perasaan ada banyak banget hal yang lebih patut dan PENTING buat diurusin. catat ya, tolong. LEBIH PENTING.
kenapa kepikirannya doski mulu?
dan begonya lagi, ini jari langsung spontan aja gitu ngeklik blogger buat jadi tempat sampah.
maap ya blogger.
now I sound like a stupid teenager having a major crush. damn. (kaya kaga ajeee... dasar rachel.ckck)

yes, indeed.
*pic from: quote-book.tumblr.com

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mari kita lupakan subjek tidak penting itu.
hari-hari ini sangat hectic. HWAA.
dengan jadwal yang (menurut gw sihh) udah rada kaya kuda, dimana keluar rumah saat hari masih subuh, dan balik sebelum jam 7 malem terasa anugerah.
dengan ini saya deklarasikan: SAYA BUTUH KEMBALI 100%!
yak yak... sekarang menjalani hidup udah (agak) kaya zombie soalnya. hehehe

dan beberapa hal yang menurut saia bisa membuat saia 100% adalah

1. Pesta Rakyat SMAK 1, which is BESOK

Joy to the world! Yeahh, baby. Call me stupid, tapi menurut pandangan gw, ngalor ngidul di sekola tanpa harus masuk kelas dan belajar, ngerem di Sports Hall nontonin yang maen futsal, ato balap karung ato tarik tambang sambil teriak-teriak. Itu fun. hehehe. Makanya gw heran kalo temen2 pada males masuk sekola pas ada acara-acara kaya gini. Ga seneng tereak2 ngedukungin temen2 pada maen bola gtuh? *ini mereka yang salah apa emang gw yang hiperaktif sih?

2. Libur cukup sehari, tapi diisi dengan hangout gokil bersama teman-teman
Best way to spend a one-day holiday! Libur seminggu tapi cuma makan-tidur di rumah mahh, basi. Ada juga balik ke sekola otaknya beku. Kalo libur sehari doang, apalagi di tengah2 minggu, trus maen gokil2an sama teman sepermainan (AH AH AH) itu refreshing sangat deh. Sayangnya skrg2 ini sekalinya ada libur, pasti udah pada ada aktivitas laen. ckckck.
BTW, saturday doesn't count yah. Itu mah tiap minggu juga adee...

3. 4th PEDC 2009
Yang ini saiah sekalian promosi ah... Jadi ceritanya klub debat saiah: Phyxius Debate Association mengadakan lomba debat di SMAK 1 BPK Penabur. Trus yaa, sebagai tuan rumah, kami mengundang sekola2 laen untuk participate. Dan gw percaya acara ini bakal fun. DI HARI-H NYAAH! tolong dicatat yah.
persiapannya sih, ehm... sedikit ribet ya bok. agak2 bikin males gtu deh. Tapi gw sangat menantikan acara benerannya, wogh, asik aja gtu kayanya. Biasanya kan atmosfir kompetisi debat itu bikin stress gara2 kita yang lomba, naahh, sekarang kita yang ngadain lombanya. Masuk deb's hall kaga ketar-ketir. Ada juga ngeliatin orang ketar-ketir. yeay!

begitulah.
mari berdoa semua hal itu bisa cepat jadi kenyataan. amin. amin. amin.

hehehe.

okee, next thing is. Gw keranjingan sama cowo2 bersuara sexy heyy.
ahahaha, semua cewe juga kali ya, kaga kreatip amat nie gw.
Tapi tapi tapii, gw jadi mpe bikin playlist gtu donk di iPod, yang isinya merupakaann..
James Morrison (tentunyah!)
The Script (super H.O.T)
Rascal Flatts (country sounds nice now, thx to them!)
Jonas Brothers (bagi saia suara Nick itu sexy, menurut anda?)


ahaha, dan teman2 sebangsanya lah.
addicted. TOTALLY.
wkwkwkwk...

udah ah, over and out!

baby can't you see?

You Belong With Me - Taylor Swift

You're on the phone with your girlfriend
She's upset
She's going off about
Something that you said
She doesn't get your humor
Like I do

I'm in my room
It's a typical tuesday night
I'm listening to the kind of music
She doesn't like
She'll never know your story
Like I do

But she wears short skirts
I wear t-shirts
She's cheer captain
And i'm on the bleachers
Dreaming about the day
When you wake up and find
That what you're looking for
Has been here the whole time

If you could see
That i'm the one
Who understands you
Been here all along
So why can't you
See you belong with me
You belong with me.

Walking the streets
With you and your worn out jeans
I can't help thinking
This is how it ought to be
Laughing on a park bench
Thinking to myself
Hey, isn't this easy?

And you've got a smile
That could light up this whole town
I haven't seen it in awhile
Since she brought you down
You say you're fine
I know you better than that
Hey what you're doing with a girl like that

She wears high heels, I wear sneakers
She's cheer captain
I'm on the bleachers
Dreaming about the day
When you wake up and find
That what you're looking for
Has been here the whole time

If you could see
That i'm the one
Who understands you
Been here all along
So why can't you
See you belong with me
Standing by and
Waiting at your backdoor
All this time
How could you not know
Baby
You belong with me
You belong with me.

[Instrumental]

Oh, I remember
You driving to my house
In the middle of the night
I'm the one who makes you laugh
When you know you're about to cry
And I know your favorite songs
And you tell me about your dreams
Think I know where you belong
Think I know it's with me

Can't you see
That i'm the one
Who understands
Been here all along
So why can't you see?
You belong with me.

Have you ever thought
Just maybe
You belong with me?

this song is for...
well, guess who?
hahaha... put the blame on yourself, mister! You're the one who came to my head straight away when I heard this song for the first time. Why do you have to be so memorable anyway?

ketika dia pergi

sebenernya ini kejadian udah lama.
gw agak ga mau tadinya nulis di sini, but then I guess it's ok.

so, sekitar 3 minggu yang lalu, hari Rabu. gw lagi OL MSN, dan chat sama salah satu temen gereja gw, hal biasa.

tiba2 pembicaraan ngalir...

Dia: "Chel, Senen kemaren ga ikut ke Boromeus?"
Gw: "Nope, Borromeus, ngapain?"
Dia: "Jenguk Pak Rudi..."
Gw: "Pak Rudi, yang di gereja? Dokter? Papinya Samson?"
Dia: "Yep, ga ikut ya lo?"
Gw: "Nope, sakit apa?"
Dia: "Ga sakit, chel... meninggal."

gw kaget. shock.
jari gw diem di atas keyboard beberapa detik. Sampe akhirnya gw loncat dari tempat tidur dan lari ke kamar papa. Nanya ke papa, apa udah tau masalah ini.

Dan papa gw kaget. Ngomong berulang-ulang kalo dia ga percaya. Well, me neither. Gw, papa n mama sama2 liat kalo hari Minggunya beliau masih ke gereja. Tapi buat make sure, gw balik ke laptop dan nanya lagi ke temen gw, further info.
Yang gw dapet?
Beliau meninggal Minggu malem, karena serangan jantung lagi treadmill. Tiba2 jatoh di rumahnya, kecapean menurut orang2. Senin udah diadain kebaktian tutup peti n Selasa dimakamkan.


what a shock.
I won't pretend like I knew him very much, because I didn't. gw cuma tau dia itu temen papa gw, anaknya temen gw, istrinya temen mama gw, kita semua ke gereja yang sama.
And he was so kind and nice. Gw masih inget tiap gw pulang les piano atau pulang gereja, dia pasti nyempetin senyum ato sekedar tanya-tanya gimana kabar gw sama mama di rumah berdua, ato gimana kerjaan papa skrg di Jakarta. Simpel, tapi dengan itu aja gw tau dia baik.
Dia care sama orang, meskipun itu cuma seorang anak remaja yang kebetulan segereja, dan kebetulan juga lewat.

dia juga dokter. A really great one.
Dia mau ngobatin siapa aja, kadang2 free of charge kalo orangnya ga mampu bayar. Gw selalu kagum sama dia karena itu, ga banyak dokter rela kaya gitu di jaman sekarang, saat buat bayar kesehatan itu susah. BANGET.

other thing I know, dia itu salah satu aktivis di Bidang Misi gereja gw.
Dia pake ilmunya di kedokteran buat Misi. Sering banget dia ikutan kegiatan gereja ke pedalaman, kemana-mana, jadi dokter, atau kadang2 ambil bagian juga dalam penyebaran Injil. Pokonya kegiatan misi. Kemana-mana here means: dari pedalaman Jabar, sampe Papua.
Banyak orang yang mau kaya gitu?
I don't think so.
Apalagi seorang dokter spesialis yang bahkan udah punya kerjaan oke dan dibayar oke juga di kota besar. Dia masih mau nyempetin pelayanan yang bisa dibilang, JAUH dari kata enak.


ga banyak yang gw tau tentang dia. Tapi gw rasa itu cukup alasan buat gw kagum sama dia.
dan dia pergi, ninggalin isterinya dan dua anaknya yang bisa dibilang, masih kecil.

gw masih di depan laptop gw, mandangin window MSN gw sama temen gw. Sadar2 pipi gw udah basah, I couldn't believe it then, but I was crying for someone I barely even close to, I thought it was weird. Tapi sekarang gw tau, ga perlu bener-bener kenal dan deket buat merasa kehilangan. Ketika ada sesuatu yang berkesan, itu cukup bikin sedih. Dan gw rasa tangisan gw waktu ga terlalu banyak, buat seseorang yang segitu hebat.

After that I realize, mungkin kata 'kematian' ga sejauh itu. Saat siang2 kita masih sehat walafiat jalan kemana-mana bukan ga mungkin malemnya kita dipanggil Tuhan.

semoga keluarganya yang ditinggalkan dikasih kekuatan.
semoga Bidang Misi yang ditinggalkannya bisa jalan terus, meskipun ga akan selengkap ketika ada dia.
semoga semua orang bisa tetep mengenang dia, dalam sudut paling baik.
he's just too great to forget.

sedikit merasa bersalah karena saat itu gw telat tahu, bahkan hari Senin pas upacara tutup peti, gw malah lagi ngalor ngidul di PVJ, damn.
I wish I could be there, to give my last appreciation for him.

God bless u, Om Rudi... May u rest in peace.
I salute you.

dan agustus pun tiba...

agustus tiba, datanglah hari-hari hectic

hahaha, sok sibuk


tapi beneraannn!! ahhh, capai sekali rasanya.
MARI BERSEMANGAT!!

apa tujuan post ini?
saya pun tak tau jawabannya...

esweteee...

nice stuff!

soo, I just found out about this bro and sis: Audrey and Gamaliel Tapiheru...!!

they are siblings (of course) and a very talented one. so basically, they sing a lotta songs, record it and the brother post it on his YouTube account. Just like so many YouTube artists I guess. But this one, is my new fave after Justin Bieber! (you know that cute boy with his nice R&B-ish voice). And just a nice coincidence, they sing so many songs that I LOVE. (Ne-Yo's Mad, Lucky, Broken Strings, you name it!)

hmm, another reason to love them.

and they are Indonesian. they live in Indonesia.
I mean, those awesome YouTube artists from Indonesia are just rare to find.
but now, they come, and they are Indonesian!

hmm, even better.

hahaha

really think that those music producers should see them, they are just soo amazingly talented.
I have to say, I think they are so much better in quality than most of Indonesian artists nowadays.

downside: seeing their videos, how those siblings sound so good singing together, I ENVY THEM!! I always wanted to have an older bro (I'm the only child) and seeing them, it just makes me want to have and older bro even more!

well, well... anyhow... still I love them!
and wherever you two are, I just want to say that I'm a new fan of yours. you two are soo nicely talented.

and, Gamaliel is kinda cute actually. hoho *TETEUUUPPP*

these are my favorites...








enjoy, folks!
ahh, I can listen to these anyday...

for the sake of our beloved world

hari ini adalah hari yang standar.

ke sekolah jam 6.30, menjalani 10 jam pelajaran
diselingi 2 kali istirahat @ 20 menit
yang (seperti hari-hari lainnya) diisi dengan ketawa-ketiwi, ngeceng sana sini
nyomot makanan, lari-larian di lorong, berusaha ngebalap guru yang udah mau masuk kelas

bel bunyi, jam 2 siang
ngacir deh ke Pascal Study Square, les Matematika
ngerjain soal selama 2 jam, dan akhirnya pulang...

biasanya gw selalu berdua naek angkot kalo pulang dari tempat les sama Yani. Tapi tadi, gw sendiri.
Dan di lampu merah (seperti biasa juga) seorang pengamen cewek nyamperin angkot dan mulai ngegonjreng gitarnya. Dia maen lagu "Heal the World"
Awalnya gw biasa-biasa aja, sibuk sama hape gw di paling pojok angkot, tapi setelah beberapa saat dia maen, I started to realize...

"Wow, she's good..."

dan tumbenan juga tu lampu merah rada lama. gw lupa sama hape gw, dan malah ngerewind lagi segala hal yang gw alami dalam sehari yang standar itu.

gw sekola di sekola swasta Kristen, di mana seharusnya anak-anaknya menganut nilai-nilai Kristiani.
tapi gw inget banget, tadi pagi gw nyuekin seorang anak kelas X yang senyum sama gw. hmm, kemana tuh KERAMAHAN yang selalu digembar gemborin jadi N2K (nilai-nilai Kristiani)?
gw juga hapal banget gimana cara anak-anak sekola gw ngomong... segala kebun binatang dan hal-hal inappropriate lainnya ga ada yang ketinggalan keluar dari mulut... mungkin gw ga ikutan dalam hal ini, tapi tetep aja, it gets me wondering
bukannya harusnya kita jadi teladan?
gw juga inget, gw udah liat temen gw, tapi gw pura2 ga liat. Terlalu gengsi buat nyapa duluan. Kenapa sih? segitu susahnya just being nice?
inget juga gimana seharian ini gw dan temen2 gw maki-maki dan make fun of seorang guru...
wow, apa kabar tuh phrase "hormati yang lebih tua"?

keluar dikit dari gerbang sekolah... di angkot menuju Pascal Study Square
seorang bapak-bapak ngerokok dengan santainya, dengan asal mengepul-ngepul dan ngga ada intention sama sekali untuk (seenggaknya) duduk deket pintu ato apalah.
ga bermaksud buat manja, tapi some people (like me) can't stand the smell of smoke. Pusingnya ga ilang2 gtu sampe gw nyampe di Pascal.
dan saat ud beres, dia buang puntung rokoknya gitu aja dengan ngelempar ke pintu.
ga mikir gimana kalo tu puntung meleset dan kena ke orang yang duduk deket pintu (which was ME!)

dan beres les, saat gw lagi jalan di tempat angkot ngetem, deket Ariyanti n Istana Plaza
a bunch of men actually do something that I think, inappropriate.
Suit-suit, ngomong2 hal-hal yang ga perlu.
Mungkin semua cewe yang biasa naek public transportation ud biasa kali ya sama hal beginian, tapi gw jadi bertanya lagi...
perlu ya kaya gitu?

hmmm... begitulah kira-kira hari gw yang standar.
dan dengan lagu Heal the World itu, gw jadi sadar.
gw dan temen-temen semua, kita adalah generasi muda dunia ini. Kita yang harus buat perubahan. mulai dari diri sendiri.

be nice, it won't hurt that much.
mind your attitude, it shows people how much you worth.
besides, you're the role model for those people younger than you.
give some credits to people older, especially our teachers. they do something noble, right?
you're not the only person in this world, so please, do care about other people.
respect everyone, treat them the way you want to be treated.

semuanya simpel kok, asal mau melakukan.
make the world a better place for living.
for the sake of our kids, and our grandkids... and all of the world's next generations.

dan tiba-tiba klakson-klakson mobil mulai balap gede2an suara lagi.
lampu merah udah ganti jadi lampu ijo. sang musisi jalanan udah ilang.

tapi dia ninggalin momen yang berarti buat gw.
bikin hari gw yang standar, jadi sedikit berarti di ujungnya.

Harry Potter and The Half-Blod Prince

Senen kemaren akhirnya nonton juga nie pilm.

Oia, before that, first things first lah yaa... I am a HUGE fan of Harry Potter saga
and that's why I always expect something major from the movie...
tapiii...

harus kukatakan
film HarPot and The Half Blood Prince ini, sorry to say
jauh di bawah ekspektasi gw...

okelah yaa, special effect and stuff like that nya oke.
tapii, film itu juga ttg cerita.
dan dari cerita fantasy yang magical film ini malah berubah jadi kaya film berisi a bunch of young wizards with nothing to concern about other than their love life.
and one of them happens to be the boy who lived.

adoohh, porsi cinta2annya itu bener2 kebanyakan... huhuhu...
major storynya itu kan harusnya ya Harry Potter harus menyelamatkan dunia sihir dari Voldemort dan Death Eaters.

reality: Harry Potter dan siswa Hogwarts lainnya adalah penyihir remaja yang lagi kasmaran kompakan, semuanya bingung sama kecengannya masing2. Dan Harry juga ngeceng geje adik temennya. Kalo lagi luang n ga ada kecengannya, Harry bantuin Dumbledore nyelametin dunia sihir.

dan ada beberapa adegan romance yang aneh.
kaya Ginny ngebenerin tali sepatunya Harry,
err, where was that coming from, anyone??!
krik krik krik. Gw melihat adegan itu udah melongo aje dengan berbisik "Lho...?"


??? Gosh...

terlalu banyak hal-hal penting dan krusial yang di-cut di film ini, dan LEBIH BANYAK lagi adegan-adegan ga penting yang bahkan ga ada di buku, tau2 muncul di film.
dan terlalu banyak adegan yang mancing tawa.

ya ngga salah sih kalo mau bikin cerita ini sedikit berwarna komedi, tapi yaaa... tolong diingat, mulai dari buku ke-5, ceritanya udah mulai lebih 'gelap', jadi yaa... ga seharusnya porsi komedinya sebanyak 'itu'. Lavendernya juga sedikit lebai nih ahh... lucu, tapi... err...

ow.ow.ow

ga nyangka gw bakal ngomong kaya gini ttg Harry Potter.


I have to say, so lucky they already got a huge fanbase, if they did something like this on the first movie, we won't have this massive movie called "Harry Potter" saga.


yah nevertheless, I'm still a HUGE fan of the story, the books.
the movie? not so big from now on, I guess... :p

mengalihkan duniaa...

actually I haven't heard the song
but I read this in the book, Rectoverso...

and, damn, I love it!

Curhat Untuk Sahabat
Dewi Lestari

"...Tak ada yang muluk dari obat flu dan air putih. Tapi kamu mempertanyakannya seperti putri minta dibuatkan seribu candi dalam semalam."

Sahabatku, usai tawa ini
Izinkan aku bercerita:

Telah jauh, ku mendaki
Sesak udara di atas puncak khayalan
Jangan sampai kau di sana

Telah jauh, ku terjatuh
Pedihnya luka di dasar jurang kecewa
Dan kini sampailah, aku disini...

Yang cuma ingin diam, duduk di tempatku
Menanti seorang yang biasa saja
Segelas air di tangannya, kala kuterbaring... sakit
Yang sudi dekat, mendekap tanganku
Mencari teduhnya dalam mataku
Dan berbisik : "Pandang aku, kau tak sendiri,
oh dewiku..."
Dan demi Tuhan, hanya itulah yang
Itu saja kuinginkan

Sahabatku, bukan maksud hati membebani,
Tetapi...

Telah lama, kumenanti
Satu malam sunyi untuk kuakhiri
Dan usai tangis ini, aku kan berjanji...

Untuk diam, duduk di tempatku
Menanti seorang yang biasa saja
Segelas air di tangannya, kala kuterbaring... sakit
Menentang malam, tanpa bimbang lagi
Demi satu dewi yang lelah bermimpi
Dan berbisik : "Selamat tidur, tak perlu bermimpi bersamaku..."

Wahai Tuhan, jangan bilang lagi itu terlalu tinggi

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Woooww, that's just plain sweet.
Along with that song, come a story with the same title... like every other song in that book (One of them is her famous single, "Malaikat Juga Tahu") And the story is a whole other thing.
Still, so damn good.

Rectoverso, highly recommended!

pipi saia bisa copot

karena beberapa hari ini saia kebanyakan senyum

komentar semua orang: "Chel, lo lagi seneng ya?"

the answer is... "YEAAA, PEOPLE, hallooo, can I make it anymore obvious?"

HAHAHA
tu kan, keluar lagi. ketawa tiba2, ga jelas
kenceng, mending kalo merdu.

well, well.. euphoria here, obviously
thanks to you... :p and I don't believe you know who you are

but seriously, I'm addicted to your chocolate high... ^^

senyum2 lagi ahhh...