posting geje...

My past weeks had been really-really crazy...

Wow, jadi begini rasanya sibuk bener2... Ampun dah. Manteb bngd. Makanya maapkan yha kalo post2 akhir-akhir ini sedikit geje. Itu sebenernya nyelip2 waktu sih, soalnya gwe memutuskan untuk ngga membiarkan blog ini terlalu terlupakan dan terbengkalai, jadi gwe berusaha (sebisa mungkin) mengurangi derajat kehinaan blog gwe yang ngga keurus ini.

Tambahan lagi novel-novel dan segala DVD yang dipinjemin temen2 dengan baiknya, jadi numpuk ngga tersentuh gitu semua di kamar. Aduh, maapkan yha teman2... Beneran deh, begitu udah rada kosongan dikit, gwe kebut semua. Hwahwahwa...

Penyebab utama dari hari-hari tunggang langgang gwe adalah, KOMPEK 2009, sebuah lomba debat yang diadain oleh FEUI, annually. And fortunately (or unfortunately?), I take a part in it. Makanya tiap hari penuh diisi macem2... Mulai dari latihan sampe discuss segala2.

So, a couple days to KOMPEK, wow, I'm scared and nervous, head over heels.
Ya ampyuns, gwe udah berusaha ga ngebayangin nieh, my very first debate competition.
GWE NERVOUS GILAAA!!!
Sebelumnya, for my teammates (Lisia n JeBe) gwe mau pengakuan dosa dulu...
1. Gwe nervous gila, jadi mohon maklum kalo di 1st day, 1st prelim gwe bertingkah dengan aneh.
2. Gwe rada lemot dalam memikirkan rebuttals dan kawan2nya, maapkan
3. Gwe belum bisa nyolot, maapkan
4. Gwe gampang ciut mental... maapkan

To sum up, mungkin gwe bukan the best 3rd speaker for you guys, but I'll try my best. Don't compare me with ur previous 3rd speaker or anyone, because maybe, I'm not as good as them, yet. Tapi gwe bener2 berharap usaha kita selama ini ga akan sia2
So, let's try our best, ok?

Hehehe... Cukup dengan pengakuan dosa...

Trus, masih nyambung posting sebelumnya ttg musik. Nambah deh lagu yang menemanikuw...

I Will Be-Leona Lewis (yang Avril juga mayan sih, tapi prefer versi Lewis)
My Life Would Suck Without You - Kelly Clarkson
Sober-Pink

Girl's power! Yeah...
Musik2 indah yang bisa nemenin gwe sepanjang hari, menjalani hari-hari yang sedikit 'gila'

Next, a few seconds to Valentine's Day..
Rencana gwe sih pengen ngehabisin dengan beresin Twilight-New Moon-Eclipse-Breaking Dawn series.

Twilight, udah beres doongg...
New Moon: lagi dibaca, masih sampe bagian Edward pergi ninggalin Bella. It's just sucks for me. Trus bagian situnya, gila so damn sad and touching. Jenis yang sedih, tapi ga cengeng.
Pengen liat gimana divisualisasikan di filmnya. Ayo dong cepetan keluar New Moon the movie...

Sisanya, Eclipse sama Breaking Dawn, ngantri yhaaa... Tenang, semua dapet giliran.
Kalo hari-hari gila ini beres, pasti gwe bakal lahap semuanyah!

Tunggu sampe KOMPEk beres!! Yeah!!

Vampire just drives me crazy.
OMG, Edward, what have you done?

music's in my soul...!

Music... music... music...
Just can't get enough of music!

Apapun itu, siapapun itu... Asal musiknya cocok di kuping gwe... Whua,
Gwe bisa dibilang orang yang ngga bisa hidup tanpa musik.
Why?
Simply.. Gwe belajar sambil denger musik, les pelajaran sambil denger musik, nulis blog sambil denger musik, mau tidur sambil denger musik,... Bahkan gwe bisa temenan sama orang juga mostly alasan awalnya karena musik...

Oke, so...
Gwe sekarang lagi hobby banget sama beberapa lagu

ralat: beberapa love song
sweet lovey dovey song

Aditya - Love Will Find You
Beyonce - Ave Maria
Beyonce (lagi) - Broken Hearted Girl
David Archuleta - You Can
Westlife - When I'm With You
Leona Lewis - I Will Be

Whua, God... Gwe jadi melankolis. Help!
Gwe pikir gwe udah tobat dari kemelankolisan gwe waktu gwe dengan getolnya mendalami Decode... Ternyata... Whua.


Tapi beneran deh tu, lagu2 yang di atas, that's what I call love song. Rasakanlah warna warninya dunia (dan cinta) bersama lagu2 ituh... *tsaaahhh*


Check out this piece of Aditya's Love Will Find You lyrics:

"Love may be fun, love may be hurt, love can be everything you want it to, open your eyes, n see it through And just give it a try... Love will find you."

Whooaaaa, bunuh aja... Bunuh, bakar!!!
Asoy banget deh tuh kata2...

Intinya, lagi banyak banget lagu2 yang nemenin hari2 gwe...

I simply can't live without music...

blessed...

Well, I don't know how it started, I just remembered I sat on one of my fave couch in the living room with my parents, just do some light chit-chat together (like any other families do). I felt some uncomfortable ache with my shoulders (I guess it's because I swam under the drizzly rain too long the other day, and I drank cold milk from the refrigerator after that...). So as always, my Dad kindly offered to rub my shoulders. I couldn't feel happier about that, since I know he's really good on it... so I sat in front of him willingly, and let him rub my shoulders (It did remove the pain!). Well, as he rubbed my shoulders, I didn't know how, it just began. He started to tell stories, first, it's just a really jumbled, random stories about his working days, and he also asked about mine. But in the end, I realized that he started to tell me stories about his experiences, his journey with my mother, until they ended up as a couple, husband and wife, and lately became mother and father. I was so hypnotized with that story (he's indeed a really good story teller). Since I was born with the habit to imagine everything people tell me, I did roll somekind of movie in my mind. With my Dad and Mom as the main cast. And it was beautiful, their story is indeed wonderful. Somehow, the story made me believe about fate, and true love. Like everyone has their own 'other half', hidden somewhere, if you know what I mean, and i'm not being a dramaqueen. I just find this true story, so inspiring. Now I know, I'm blessed. There must be a reason why my Dad and my Mom met (my Mom kept saying that she didn't fell in love at the first sight with my Dad), and they could maintain the long distance relationship, apart by ... I don't know how many miles, ended up married, had a child, raise a family, and there comes me. As the story came to an end, I could see them in a different way. I always thought that love stories with twisted, unclear problems that always come to happy ending are just made for the silver screen, it's not real. But somehow, they made me see that fairy tale kind of love stories can be more real that I've expected. It created me, for crying outloud. Hmm...

Well, thanks God my Mom and Dad met.

And suddenly, the story ended, and the pain on my shoulders had gone also... So I decided to go to my bedroom, turned on my laptop, and deliver this short post to you guys.
keep your faith on everything, including love, I know sometimes it's just easier to just go on, without hoping, without wishing, without considering that little thing called love. But remember, no love, no us.

It's not minor indeed, even though we always thought so. I guess it has a really major power, that we've never expected.
But, we can invisibly feel.

about this, and that

"aku ingin melupakanmu"
tapi kamu mengejar
mulai dari awan, hingga rerumputan
bahkan ketiadaanmu, membawa pikiranku

"aku ingin melupakanmu"
bisikku, sunyi
namun samar, beriring tolakan halus
tidak bisa, tidak semudah itu
aku tahu

"aku ingin melupakanmu"
bahkan angin tak mengijinkanku
ia terus membawamu padaku
betapapun aku menjauh
betapapun aku sembunyi

"aku HARUS melupakanmu"
suara bertanya, mengapa?
"karena kamu tidak membawa yang baik untukku
kamu membuatku kacau
kamu membuatku hilang
kamu membuatku,
berbeda"

dan mengapa berbeda itu buruk?
diam
sunyi
aku pun tidak tahu,
aku percaya hal yang tak logis
aku melakukan hal yang selalu kucemooh, dulu
aku sulit mengenali diriku

maka kembali, aku berbisik
"aku HARUS melupakanmu"
suara itu seakan tersenyum
bagaimana jika itu memang fase wajib untukmu?
sama seperti yang dijalani manusia lainnya?
sama seperti yang dijalani teman-temanmu?
yang mungkin dulu, kamu cemooh

"AKU TIDAK MENYUKAINYA!"
teriakku geram,
namun keheningan menepukku
menyadarkanku,
membujukku untuk merenunginya,
lagi
...
apa benar?