baby can't you see?

You Belong With Me - Taylor Swift

You're on the phone with your girlfriend
She's upset
She's going off about
Something that you said
She doesn't get your humor
Like I do

I'm in my room
It's a typical tuesday night
I'm listening to the kind of music
She doesn't like
She'll never know your story
Like I do

But she wears short skirts
I wear t-shirts
She's cheer captain
And i'm on the bleachers
Dreaming about the day
When you wake up and find
That what you're looking for
Has been here the whole time

If you could see
That i'm the one
Who understands you
Been here all along
So why can't you
See you belong with me
You belong with me.

Walking the streets
With you and your worn out jeans
I can't help thinking
This is how it ought to be
Laughing on a park bench
Thinking to myself
Hey, isn't this easy?

And you've got a smile
That could light up this whole town
I haven't seen it in awhile
Since she brought you down
You say you're fine
I know you better than that
Hey what you're doing with a girl like that

She wears high heels, I wear sneakers
She's cheer captain
I'm on the bleachers
Dreaming about the day
When you wake up and find
That what you're looking for
Has been here the whole time

If you could see
That i'm the one
Who understands you
Been here all along
So why can't you
See you belong with me
Standing by and
Waiting at your backdoor
All this time
How could you not know
Baby
You belong with me
You belong with me.

[Instrumental]

Oh, I remember
You driving to my house
In the middle of the night
I'm the one who makes you laugh
When you know you're about to cry
And I know your favorite songs
And you tell me about your dreams
Think I know where you belong
Think I know it's with me

Can't you see
That i'm the one
Who understands
Been here all along
So why can't you see?
You belong with me.

Have you ever thought
Just maybe
You belong with me?

this song is for...
well, guess who?
hahaha... put the blame on yourself, mister! You're the one who came to my head straight away when I heard this song for the first time. Why do you have to be so memorable anyway?

ketika dia pergi

sebenernya ini kejadian udah lama.
gw agak ga mau tadinya nulis di sini, but then I guess it's ok.

so, sekitar 3 minggu yang lalu, hari Rabu. gw lagi OL MSN, dan chat sama salah satu temen gereja gw, hal biasa.

tiba2 pembicaraan ngalir...

Dia: "Chel, Senen kemaren ga ikut ke Boromeus?"
Gw: "Nope, Borromeus, ngapain?"
Dia: "Jenguk Pak Rudi..."
Gw: "Pak Rudi, yang di gereja? Dokter? Papinya Samson?"
Dia: "Yep, ga ikut ya lo?"
Gw: "Nope, sakit apa?"
Dia: "Ga sakit, chel... meninggal."

gw kaget. shock.
jari gw diem di atas keyboard beberapa detik. Sampe akhirnya gw loncat dari tempat tidur dan lari ke kamar papa. Nanya ke papa, apa udah tau masalah ini.

Dan papa gw kaget. Ngomong berulang-ulang kalo dia ga percaya. Well, me neither. Gw, papa n mama sama2 liat kalo hari Minggunya beliau masih ke gereja. Tapi buat make sure, gw balik ke laptop dan nanya lagi ke temen gw, further info.
Yang gw dapet?
Beliau meninggal Minggu malem, karena serangan jantung lagi treadmill. Tiba2 jatoh di rumahnya, kecapean menurut orang2. Senin udah diadain kebaktian tutup peti n Selasa dimakamkan.


what a shock.
I won't pretend like I knew him very much, because I didn't. gw cuma tau dia itu temen papa gw, anaknya temen gw, istrinya temen mama gw, kita semua ke gereja yang sama.
And he was so kind and nice. Gw masih inget tiap gw pulang les piano atau pulang gereja, dia pasti nyempetin senyum ato sekedar tanya-tanya gimana kabar gw sama mama di rumah berdua, ato gimana kerjaan papa skrg di Jakarta. Simpel, tapi dengan itu aja gw tau dia baik.
Dia care sama orang, meskipun itu cuma seorang anak remaja yang kebetulan segereja, dan kebetulan juga lewat.

dia juga dokter. A really great one.
Dia mau ngobatin siapa aja, kadang2 free of charge kalo orangnya ga mampu bayar. Gw selalu kagum sama dia karena itu, ga banyak dokter rela kaya gitu di jaman sekarang, saat buat bayar kesehatan itu susah. BANGET.

other thing I know, dia itu salah satu aktivis di Bidang Misi gereja gw.
Dia pake ilmunya di kedokteran buat Misi. Sering banget dia ikutan kegiatan gereja ke pedalaman, kemana-mana, jadi dokter, atau kadang2 ambil bagian juga dalam penyebaran Injil. Pokonya kegiatan misi. Kemana-mana here means: dari pedalaman Jabar, sampe Papua.
Banyak orang yang mau kaya gitu?
I don't think so.
Apalagi seorang dokter spesialis yang bahkan udah punya kerjaan oke dan dibayar oke juga di kota besar. Dia masih mau nyempetin pelayanan yang bisa dibilang, JAUH dari kata enak.


ga banyak yang gw tau tentang dia. Tapi gw rasa itu cukup alasan buat gw kagum sama dia.
dan dia pergi, ninggalin isterinya dan dua anaknya yang bisa dibilang, masih kecil.

gw masih di depan laptop gw, mandangin window MSN gw sama temen gw. Sadar2 pipi gw udah basah, I couldn't believe it then, but I was crying for someone I barely even close to, I thought it was weird. Tapi sekarang gw tau, ga perlu bener-bener kenal dan deket buat merasa kehilangan. Ketika ada sesuatu yang berkesan, itu cukup bikin sedih. Dan gw rasa tangisan gw waktu ga terlalu banyak, buat seseorang yang segitu hebat.

After that I realize, mungkin kata 'kematian' ga sejauh itu. Saat siang2 kita masih sehat walafiat jalan kemana-mana bukan ga mungkin malemnya kita dipanggil Tuhan.

semoga keluarganya yang ditinggalkan dikasih kekuatan.
semoga Bidang Misi yang ditinggalkannya bisa jalan terus, meskipun ga akan selengkap ketika ada dia.
semoga semua orang bisa tetep mengenang dia, dalam sudut paling baik.
he's just too great to forget.

sedikit merasa bersalah karena saat itu gw telat tahu, bahkan hari Senin pas upacara tutup peti, gw malah lagi ngalor ngidul di PVJ, damn.
I wish I could be there, to give my last appreciation for him.

God bless u, Om Rudi... May u rest in peace.
I salute you.

dan agustus pun tiba...

agustus tiba, datanglah hari-hari hectic

hahaha, sok sibuk


tapi beneraannn!! ahhh, capai sekali rasanya.
MARI BERSEMANGAT!!

apa tujuan post ini?
saya pun tak tau jawabannya...

esweteee...

nice stuff!

soo, I just found out about this bro and sis: Audrey and Gamaliel Tapiheru...!!

they are siblings (of course) and a very talented one. so basically, they sing a lotta songs, record it and the brother post it on his YouTube account. Just like so many YouTube artists I guess. But this one, is my new fave after Justin Bieber! (you know that cute boy with his nice R&B-ish voice). And just a nice coincidence, they sing so many songs that I LOVE. (Ne-Yo's Mad, Lucky, Broken Strings, you name it!)

hmm, another reason to love them.

and they are Indonesian. they live in Indonesia.
I mean, those awesome YouTube artists from Indonesia are just rare to find.
but now, they come, and they are Indonesian!

hmm, even better.

hahaha

really think that those music producers should see them, they are just soo amazingly talented.
I have to say, I think they are so much better in quality than most of Indonesian artists nowadays.

downside: seeing their videos, how those siblings sound so good singing together, I ENVY THEM!! I always wanted to have an older bro (I'm the only child) and seeing them, it just makes me want to have and older bro even more!

well, well... anyhow... still I love them!
and wherever you two are, I just want to say that I'm a new fan of yours. you two are soo nicely talented.

and, Gamaliel is kinda cute actually. hoho *TETEUUUPPP*

these are my favorites...








enjoy, folks!
ahh, I can listen to these anyday...