kembali melan geje

hmm, firstly, biggest apology
karena post ini akan menjadi ajang curhat saya
terimakasih


let's get this over with then.


udah nahan-nahan, jangan jadiin blogger tempat sampah perasaan. ternyata, emang paling asik dump all the garbage here yooo.

so, so, so
ever feel insecure about your feeling?
like, you are afraid to be hurt by that certain person (u know what I mean), meanwhile you're afraid too about what other people may think about your feelings.
the case here is, afraid to be judged 'stupid'. 'hypocrite'. 'naive'. even if *maybe* in fact, you are.

dan pernah juga ga sih *and yes, ini posting bilingual. marah2 paling enak kalo gado2*
ngerasa kaya sesuatu itu ga adil?
like you don't deserve what you get, and here I mean, you deserve better.
to be specified, you deserve to be TREATED better.

dan pernah juga ga sih, ngerasa terlalu banyak yang harus dipikirkan. semua jenis msalah datangnya bareng2, keroyokan.
KALO BERANI SATU2 DONG!
dan kalo udah kaya gtu, jatoh2nya apa? jadi sensi, pengen marah2, gloomy sepanjang hari. bikin polusi sosial juga buat orang di sekeliling lo.

and to make it even worse, lo dikasih beban sesuatu. yang lo gatau lagi gimana cara mikulnya.

kesel ga sih?

dunia kaya gitu sekarang lagi naksir sama gw. deket2 mulu.
jujur, pasti gamau kan jadi seseorang yang whiny. ngeluh ini itu. tapi kadang, perasaannya terlalu overwhelming. and you just need something, somewhere, someone, to dump that shit, to maintain your emotion. supaya ga nambah2 polusi sosial di lingkungan.
bahkan tanpa polusi sosial dari lo, lingkungan sosial udah ga sehat.

mungkin terasa familiar? hmm, hope so. semoga bisa pada relate ke tulisan ini. *kalo ngga ya, maapkan*
karena dunia suckish di atas lagi ga terla3u jauh dari gw.
dan semoga ngga deket2 amat juga.

so there, hate this post, love this post, or just ignore it.
and believe me, I'll take quite some time to be brave enough to click the 'PUBLISH' icon.

hahaha...


and surprise?
belom beres ciinnn


ckakakaka


mau ngomong apa lagi ya??
hmm, oia! kalo ada line lagu yang lagi pengen banget gw kasih ke seseorang
that line would be:

"Can't you see that I'm the one who understands you
been here all along, why can't you see?"

yes, taylor swift-you belong with me. ABG abis.
dan gw emang sengaja ga nyertain bagian 'you belong with me' nya.
karena ngga yakin, si manusia itu emang 'belongs with me'... dan kayanya sih ngga.
saat seseorang belongs with you, dia akan terlihat sangat unik. berbeda. one in a million.
tapi sekarang, dia ngga terlihat seperti si 'one' itu. dia terlihat sooo 'million'. kaya orang2 lain.

malesin. hahaha.

faktor bosen? mungkin.
satu yang gw tahu. momen kaya gini bikin kita jadi munafik.

udah ketauan berengseknya. udah ketauan belangnya.
kita akan terlihat bodoh kalo masih mengharapkan? ya ngga?
seseorang yang menggunakan logika, mostly, will say 'yes'
tapi kenyataannya?

I'm so over it... NOT.
hahahaha.
padahal kalo ada yang nanya
"gimana chel si ituuu?? masihhh??"
gw: "yah ampun , kemana ajah? udah kelaut."


GET REAL.


ya ampunnn.


kembalikan logika saya.
dan emosi sehat saya.

BUTUH. SANGAT.

erh, me out, I guess.
sorry for dumping my feelings here..
feel better, me. you? feel worse? sick? wanna puke?
go on. no offense taken. ckakakaka
'

living the good life

totally.

minggu lalu kami barely had KBM
dan sabtu kemaren saia nonton Malam Pagelaran Seni SMAK 1 bersama teman2...
@ Dago Tea House Bandung

best part

tentu sajah...

KERISPATIHHH

ya ampun, sammy makan apaan sik, suaranya bagus bet dah... wkwkwk
bermelannajong ria bersama teman2 dengan suara emas sammy *jiah lebai*

pokonya gitu dehhhh


trus skrg saia sedang dikelilingi baju2 yang belom dimasukkin tas
dan di bawah kaki saia ada tas travel time yang kebuka retsletingnya.

mu ngapain lo chel??
widyawisata with the class of course! yeah

Jogja-Solo akhirnya, setelah diganti sebelumnya rencana Lampung-Jakarta
berhubung gempa beruntun di Sumatera (our prayers with u all, friends) orangtua agak2 rebek gtuh mu biarin kita widyawisata ke Lampung. Jadi yaa, pengalihan tujuan, diambillah Jogja dan Solo. Lucunya, gara2 skul ngecancelnya hanya seminggu sblum hari-H, kena cancellation fee, n ada beberapa DP yang ga bisa dibalikin. otomatis dana jadi kurang. nah, sekolah minta ke travel buat ngatur2 acara gimana caranya biar kita gausa nambah biaya lagi.

dan solusinyaa...

TIDAK ADA KUNJUNGAN INDUSTRI.

artinya sodara2??

KAMI TIDAK ADA TUGAS. ngga kaya widyawisata biasanya.

BANZAAAIII!!

artinya lagi sodara2....

widyawisata (coret)

WISATA MURNI.

this is what I call 'living the good life'

gausa deh inget2 minggu depan beres piknik, sekola menunggu, tugas, ulangan dan PEDC 2009. Ahh well... Live what we're living, right???


soo, let's get the party started... HERE WE COME, BABY!!!

off to Jogja-Solo peeps, I'll be back with a bunch of photos and stories. duh. hwehwe :)

the Proposal

berkali-kali jalan di lorong XXI
berkali-kali liat poster The Proposal...
tapi akhirnya nonton juga loohhh... YAY!

ceritanya hari terakhir mid, and I was so sick with those Mid-Test thingie.
Jadiii, saia memutuskan mengajak ibu Yani Parasti untuk nonton the Proposal pulang Mid.
Yes people, just two besties hanging out, watching a chick-flick romantic comedy. hahaha, 'jomblo stuff' banget ngga sih?
ahh, the hell laahhh... filmnya asoy geboy yang jelaas...

this movie is totally the romantic c0medy of the year. yeah, baby. senang sekali saia menontonnya...
super kocak. sekalinya kocak bisa ketawa ngga berhenti2 loh, sampe sakit perut gue... Tapi sekalinya sweet... Oh my, really thankful I didn't watch the movie with a boy, or 'someone else'
GILAA, bikin pengen dipeluk!

super sweet and super funny.
and ryan reynolds is super cute too. hihihi.

okeeii, ceritanya emang ga magnifico banget gituh sih. dengan liat posternya, dan baca taglinenya ("here comes the bribe..")
sebenernya udah bisa nebak banget kok alur cerita dan endingnya.
cuma mencapai endingnya itu loohh, gokil bet dah. chemistry antara Ryan n Sandra juga oke. Jadinya yang nonton ya nyaman2 ajahh, biarpun itu cerita sebenernya sih super klise. and it was a nice laugh, indeed. gw orangnya film = hiburan sih, not a quality movie freak. malah agak ga mudeng sama film2 festival gtuh... kata orang keren, gw pasti malah bingung endingnya. YAAAH, maklumlahhh... anak SMA. people don't mock on teenagers and go like "dasar ABG" or "selera ABG banget sih!" for no reason you know. hoho.

eniweis,
fave scene: dansa huga2 bersama nenek di hutan. totally, like duh.

soo, all in all... if you're looking for a nice laugh, come see this movie. for me, it worth every penny, oops. not penny, maybe... 'cepek-an'. gyahaha *mulai geje*

ciao!

these distractions

I Love...

the smell of fresh jasmine tea, ready to drink.

remembering the smell of people close to me

the fact that I don't cry easily because of my own experience, makes it easier to get over

the fact that I DO cry easily for others experience, makes me a more caring less ignorant person

screaming, shouting, yelling

a school-day without having any lessons, just fun activities

the smell of the air from a newly turned on air conditioner

the idea of a guy hugging his girl around her waist from behind to surprise her, it's just sweet.

a sad-ending for fiction novels

a happy ending for television series

a bitter-sweet ending for movies

super sad sentimental songs

super sweet lovey dovey songs

super bitchy songs *especially this one*

the smell of bookstores

rubbing my feet on my bed sheet before I fall to sleep

mozarella cheese

salty food

any food that contains cheese and eggs

seeing a good blood related brother-sister relationships, sweet.

a rather rough yet romantic male voice

noodles. ALL KINDS OF THEM.

the friendly, green yet sophisticated atmosphere of Universitas Indonesia, Depok

rather sentimental love quotes

daydreaming alone, imagining how I want things to be

having a nice girl-talk with my besties

horror movies for watching with friends

romantic comedy for watching with the girls (or alone)

family comedy for watching alone

and of course, the last but definitely not least

having a new message on my cell and find your name when I press 'open'

***

I once read a really cool writing that said,
we all know that at one point, we'll meet the end of our lives
so basically this whole things that we call as 'life' is just some sort of distractions from that certain end. and that's why people are dying to try to make their own distractions for a nice life.
and those list before, I'll consider them as my distractions
simple things that keep me alive.
simple things that I, simply love.