midnight-alone-thinking

here i am, sitting here alone... it's 00.14 and i've got nothing to do.. since i had a really-really long and satisfying nap before, i've got no intention to put my head on my pillow right now. i think i'll just stay here, wide awake with my laptop and write some stuff here or, maybe I should do absolutely nothing?? ahh, i don't think so, not my style...

maybe u realize that, if we're alone (well in my case, i'm with my laptop and the TV..) u can't help ur mind to start wondering about things that you never think of during your days. Why? well, because you've got a lot of interesting things to do than just talking to your head...
so this is what i'm doing...
first of all, i do think that i should do some writing in English, so, that's why you are reading this in English!! Hehe.. some minor changes won't hurt anyways...

second... Hh, let's just review about my current life, I go to my beloved school everyday (okay, not everyday... 5 days a week), do everything that seems like a re-run, over and over again. Don't get it wrong, I'm not saying that my life sucks. Sumtimes, I do think that I'm a little bored with this kind of life, it's like, I need something to get my head off these really tiring and common activities. And guess what... I don't have any choice to replace that word 'something' !! So I guess, I can't complain since I have no alternatives. Well, well...Thank God I have these crazy friends who keep me serious and alive at the same time. Hmmm... If I write all bout u guys one by one, it'll need one extremely loongggg post... So I think it's best for all of us if I just sum it up. Guys, you are crazy and caring at the same time... I don't know how could you be so smart yet so silly, so serious yet so clumsy, so not funny (at all... especially about that'pisan' and 'ajah' stuff) but still, can keep me on laughing. Hahaha... Those times of walking around, yelling and shouting, having a peek on the secret crushes are so precious. And I really do adore our friendship because you can keep me on going not just for fun, you also support me academically , I think 60% of my efforts on those difficult subjects is because of you guys... I guess most of the colours of my life were painted by you all, from 'curhat' to study Physics together and everything in between...So what should I say? I can't come up with anything better than this, "Love u and thank you so much guys..."

Third, my academic life has been crazy. Wew, high school is not easy indeed. I think I need to catch up on every scores (plenty actually) that I've got bad. I know there's only TAS (Final Exam) left for my final mark... Wish I can push myself to the limit. Ah, future must be better, no excuses anymore!!

Last one, my early life of High School has been a roller coaster... So many ups, downs and things that I can't decide if it's up or down. Like my feelings for this guy. I know that it's just so impossible, but yet, I still dreaming about it. What should I say, I can't take full control of my feelings. I wish I could, but the fact is, I can't. So I guess all that I can do is just let it flow. I don't want to let it end with no effort, I don't want to forget it. But I just don't want to be controlled by it, like one of my friend say "Don't let something that's still uncertain hold your life back, it's not yours and maybe it will never be..."
So, from now on, I think I'll just chill and let everything go with the flow. Time to concentrate on the other things far more important than that...

Woof, I guess that's all... Not too long, but honestly... This post took quite long time... Hmmm, I think I'll go to bed now. It's way too late... Hahaha... Cya...